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Sport 34: Winter 2006

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My room is high up. Mum took the magpie away but sometimes there are birds outside the window.

I asked Mum where Brendan was and she said, the doctor wants you to stay in hospital for a little bit longer. You had another headache, do you remember?

They tested my brain while I was dreaming but they don't know why it hurts. Well Father Brunetti says no one can hide from God but that doesn't mean God can't hide from someone, even a doctor.

Dad's in hospital too. I asked Mum if I could go and see him but she said a different hospital. First I waited for God to show me where Dad and Brendan were and then I decided to go and find them. I did the kneeling with my arms out for ages and I even added extra things like staring at the light and trying not to blink but it didn't work, it just got too hard and I had to stop. But then it sort of did work because Mum said we could call Dad on the phone. He sounded sleepy again but he didn't tell me off, he just asked if me and Mum were okay. He started saying something about Brendan too but then he must have forgotten what it was. I asked him how long he had to stay at his hospital and he said for a while. He said his hospital has a garden and there's a bird that comes every day and has a fight with the other bird it can see in the window because it doesn't know it's just a reflection. Dad was worried it would hurt itself from flying into the glass like that and he page 158thought it would be his fault for not opening the window. Actually he tried but I think it was stuck. Well then he had another idea, which was go outside and hold some bread out in his hand to make friends with the bird. So far it keeps ignoring him but he said he'll just wait. He said the reason he wanted to see everything all the time was to know if it would be all right but he forgot about wait and see.

Well another thing is, God isn't always looking. Sometimes he's hiding and sometimes he's just floating in the dam, thinking about something else and things happen anyway. Like Brendan not coming back. God can see more because he's looking from higher up but nobody sees everything. And I thought everybody had to see or it didn't count but it still does.

Mum's taking me home soon. The doctor said I could and Mum says if I want to I can have an eye-patch to wear like a pirate. When I look at the sky I know how God feels hiding inside my brain and I wish I could let him out but here the windows don't open. So I think I have to keep God inside me for a while and he can show me things when he sees them, and when he doesn't see maybe sometimes I'll show him.