Evasion Theory

(for Anne)

We're always being told we should face
up to our fears, relive that strangled
childhood, that marriage; told that if we
exorcise our demons, we'll receive
our very own happy ending. Isn't
that how the story goes? But read on.

You'll find several chapters you missed.
‘Evasion theory’, for example,
which opens: ‘It's okay to evade
what makes you afraid. Confronting your
fear doesn't make it disappear, just gives
it freer rein. Remember, nightmares

love daylight too.’ Next you're encouraged
to consider Oedipus. Shouldn't he
have left things alone? He'd rubbed along
well enough with Jocasta and the kids,
after all. And he was king. But, no;
he had to consult the oracle.

So my advice is: ignore the urge
to rummage in your backpack, to un-
earth all that stuff you've contrived to live
with; once out, those furious fears will
visit any hour they like. Keep mum;
bury the dead; let it all flash by.
It's okay to evade what makes you afraid.