Sport 43: 2015
I keep seeing people wearing faces like masks. I don’t mean, wearing their faces as if their faces were masks, I mean, their faces, stuck right on to the front of their head, are shaped like masks, over-determined signifiers signaling an audience in the gods, or squinting by firelight. The fool, the lover, the buck-toothed bulging-browed girl, the squat lips of flexible recombination gone wrong. This is what sex does when it fucks up, what we see when we look for figurines, for characters.
Last night we sat mostly naked in the public spa and one of them stepped in, squatted, rubbed his belly, cupped his hands and drank the water. The hinge of his jaw worked. His tongue curled and sucked at his cupped hand, siphoning into himself the fluid we were boiling in. It was intimate and disgusting. There was no way to care about it, not even to look at him.
Sometimes I wonder, can the world teach me to draw? Must I work at it or can I do it by observation? Do I need special tools?