Pipi
water is high for pipi
two cold inches deep our hands are wintered our gumboots have small holes we work with slow ache for one single bucketful but there is not breath enough to keep our four hands warm I brave chills because you have seven years on me and you were there the first time I held pipi dig your fingers into sand strike hard shell wash a little as you bring them up dig the small ones back in your mother once told me the story of your birth being dragged under while you were cut out by obstetricians though she kicked and she cried your mother has never trusted men or doctors since but somehow loves one scruffy intact tom cat who has fathered a whole neighbourhood never sticks about to watch the babies come smoothly in parcels never stays to watch mother nibble away each pearly membrane her rough tongue draw open each first breath her tired belly rise and fall the milk in pools about kitten mouths when we get home we take the back door shut it rough while winter air reels and sighs through house cracks we put the pipi in the bathtub and you fuck me while I worry about whether my whimpers are inspiring either way it's warmer than before either way your skin is smooth and I am a pock-marked curve beside you we take the pipi out of the chilling bath help them into a hot one with a slice of butter stop their quiet filtering through sea breaths pluck congealed thumb tips from shells your mother is guilty of taking the small ones turning them slow in warm tap water running her thumb over their shined lips to touch the hard groove the living tightness your mother is guilty of killing quick in wine sucking brine deep
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